When I Left
When I left,
I didn’t have the means of entry
To an honesty that should have said,
Could have said,
“I loved you once, but now I don’t.
I do not love you anymore”.
Such simple words, and yet
I could not think of how to say them.
I, the wimp said “Yes”,
Not making clear the unconditionality of No.
“I said instead, well, thought, not said,
“In a way” or, “like a friend”.
What was I thinking when
I really wanted it to end?
Hidden somewhere among fears
I could not find an honesty –
Which only brought more tears.
Fear of hurting you? No, it was
Weakness and hypocrisy, which
Given a like situation
I would never do or be again:
Saying yes when I mean no.
I’d go,
But with more
Candor.
When I Left 9.5.2015
Love Relationships II;
Arlene Corwin
