The Long, Long Sundays Facing Time version#2 1997

 

      The Long, Long Sundays Facing Time

“Sundays are so long!”

It’s time again. It’s Time again.

My mother in-law loathes that time.

Unsolvable and cloudy time;

Time shrouded in ennui so

Deep, she is a stagnant dynamo,

Helplessness so stamped on

Soul that all the day is drab –

No matter what the sun.

What is this ‘time’ interpretation

If not bad translation straight from cell to day, the stab

At self-enjoyment or employment

Minimized to sleeping, waking,

Cooking, eating, making

Number one and number two;

TV, phoning: things to do.

Sundays are so long –

Shortened by a family visit.

Otherwise it’s sitting at the window.

Street that stands outside the house

Stands for six days in the week.

Families, drunks; the closet

Hours that dose the bleak

With meaning masked inside.

Mother in-law, eighty-three –

A you, a me.

It isn’t just to hide from ticking time which tocks outside

But lives inside, but baring breast to morning

Join the ripple in the stream

Where standing still, you never feel

The river’s ripple twice the same:

Infinity within that frame.

The drawn out sitting, pained and bare,

Automizing childhood prayer

Stales, when you fail to square off

With the long, long Sundays facing time.

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The Long, Long Sundays Facing Time 97.8.24Our Times, Our Culture; Nature Of & In Reality; Time; Swedish Book; Small Stories; Special People, Special Occasions; 

Arlene Corwin

 

The Sadly Futile Pretence 1993

                  The Sadly Futile Pretence

“This is the last song that you’ll ever hear me play,” he roared.

He sat down at his organ, striking one great chord.

“…the last song that I’ll ever play in this damned pub!”

And he walked up to the organ while the boss looked bored.

He played a song he’d often played, but with a great emotion.

He played his heart out, as they say. He played with great devotion

To the theme, and as he finished with a grand dramatic pause,

He took his beer, he wiped a tear and looked for some applause.

But folk continued talking; clinking glass was all you heard.

For the saddest cut of all was that, in fact, nobody cared.

“They’ll see they cannot do without me. They’ll be sorry yet…!”

He was thinking this with every pounded note he played that set.

 

Just a drunken little fellow who showed up each night at six,

And who stayed till two each morning showing off his tattered tricks.

Who’d begun to think he owned the club – played host and bossed around

Other players who showed up to play. He had to share the stand.

And if someone had a birthday or a graduation day,

Or if someone wanted Strauss, or asked to sing, then he would play.

Good old Charlie-at-the-ready, with unsteady hand could

Play light opera or a folk song. In his genre good.

Not professional, but in his amateurish way he played quite well,

Playing harmonies – not incorrect – just, what shall we say, – stale.

Dearest Charlie, dear loud Charlie, he could turn a tune.

And he sometimes changed the light bulbs in his home in the saloon.

 

I’d have sworn he’d gone forever, if you’d asked me on that night.

But on showing up myself next week, he’d far from taken flight.

Walking round the club as always, telling all who gave an ear,

How he’d fixed the mike, had cleaned the keys, wouldn’t say no to beer:

“A strong one, please!”

©The Sadly Futile Pretence 93.7.5

Vaguely About Music; Special People Special Occasions;Small Stories Book;

Arlene Corwin

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Speaking Of Essence 2007

            Speaking Of Essence

Essence has a kind of maths –

A nucleus expressed in faith:

The star

That follows

Who you are

And what.

We visit the botanic gardens, me, you, mother in-law.

She says “They don’t sweep the paths”.

In a café, as she sits there –

It’s the sweeping,

Not the sweets she eats there.

Café clean, there’s nothing more.

Before the food, it is the floor.

Nothing matters

But the splatters,

And her essence has no peace

Until, unless

A spirit comes to move her.

©Speaking Of Essence 07.10.25 (revised from 99.6.14)

Mother Book; Small Stories Book; Swedish Book;

Arlene Corwin

 

 

Brother In-Law 2007

      Brother In-Law

Last night, my brother in-law cramped;

Puked phlegmy masses,

Landed in Emergency:

His fourth time there all slumped.

My brother in-law drinks.

He looks like shit,  he looks like crap.

This handsome chap

Once a ‘looker’.

Alcoholic, sentimental,

Lachrymose;

Self centered on his overdosed

Self-centered haze.

He has a woman. It amazes.

Really, he can’t love.

I wonder just how long he’ll live.

He’s had one bypass.

Such a waste.

Watch this space.

©Brother in-law 07.3.14

Birth, Death & In Between; I Is Always You Is We; Special People Special Occasions; Small Stories Book;

 

Arlene Corwin

*As I enter this it’s December, 2008. He’s just come back home again – emergency room; 10 days

there convulsions, the works. Worse than ever. \Promises. “This time for real” “Never a drink

again”.

We’ll see.

Always On His Way 1996

Always On His Way

I know a man who retired at fifty.
“Boy, I’m retired!
I’ll be admired!
Accomplishment nifty!
Think of the time and the years I’ll have free!”
He ran back and forth from the car to the house.
You’d think he was circus-trained: flea or a louse –
Looking for something to do.

He’s back at a job, selling systems and pooh;
I don’t know the term to describe his new tryst.
He does what he did with a slightly new twist.
Moves like a sperm or a worm in the mist,
Back making money to stuff in his fist,
Squirming and groping to keep the days brewing,
Clueless that sitting is also ‘a doing’.

©Always On His Way 8.22,1996
Our Times, Our Culture; Special People, Special Occasions; Small Stories Book;
Arlene Corwin

The Sadly Futile Pretence 1993

                 The Sadly Futile Pretence

“This is the last song that you’ll ever hear me play,” he roared.

He sat down at his organ, striking one great chord.

“…the last song that I’ll ever play in this damned pub!”

And he walked up to the organ while the boss looked bored.

He played a song he’d often played, but with a great emotion.

He played his heart out, as they say. He played with great devotion

To the theme, and as he finished with a grand dramatic pause,

He took his beer, he wiped a tear and looked for some applause.

But folk continued talking; clinking glass was all you heard.

For the saddest cut of all was that, in fact, nobody cared.

“They’ll see they cannot do without me. They’ll be sorry yet…!”

He was thinking this with every pounded note he played that set.

Just a drunken little fellow who showed up each night at six,

And who stayed till two each morning showing off his tattered tricks.

Who’d begun to think he owned the club – played host and bossed around

Other players who showed up to play. He had to share the stand.

And if someone had a birthday or a graduation day,

Or if someone wanted Strauss, or asked to sing, then he would play.

Good old Charlie-at-the-ready, with unsteady hand could

Play light opera or a folk song. In his genre good.

Not professional, but in his amateurish way he played quite well,

Playing harmonies – not incorrect – just, what shall we say, – stale.

Dearest Charlie, dear loud Charlie, he could turn a tune.

And he sometimes changed the light-bulbs in his home in the saloon.

I’d have sworn he’d gone forever, if you’d asked me on that night.

But on showing up myself next week, he’d far from taken flight.

Walking round the club as always, telling all who gave an ear,

How he’d fixed the mike, had cleaned the keys, wouldn’t say no to beer:

“A strong one, please!”

©The Sadly Futile Pretence 93.7.5

Vaguely About Music; Special People Special Occasions; Small Stories Book;

Arlene Corwin

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